My residence documents from Ministry of Works.

Rahila Khanum (krishan konna of Bangladesh)

‘‘না তুম জান, না হাম’’

Kriashan Konna of Bangladesh

ডিসেম্বর ২৯,২০০৯ খ্রি:। মানসী আজ যথারীতি অফিসে এসেছে।  তার ডেক্সে বসে বসে ভাবছিল আর মনে মনে ভিষণ আনন্দ অনুভব করছিল আজ বহুদিন পরে দেশে সত্যিকারের একটা সাকসেসফুল ডেমোক্রাসি পার্লামেন্ট দেখতে পাচ্ছে ।তাহ আজকের অফিসের প্রথম সকল তার কাছে ভিষণ ভাল লাগছে।সকাল ১০-০০ টা হবে হঠাৎ ফোন বেজে উঠল। ধরতেহ শোনা গেল-জয় বাংলাÕ| মানসীও বলল-জয়বাংলা টু হউ অলসো। বাট একটু দেরী হল|হঠাৎ দীর্ঘ ১৬ দিন পর হঠাৎ বুঝে উঠতে পারেনি।তারপর কথা হল। তার কথা ছিল মানসী ভাল থাকলেও সেও ভাল থাকবে।কিন্ত মানসীেত আজ ভাল নেহ। আরও বলল-আমিত সবহ জানি-লিখে কি হবে ?  আরও বলল-তুমিও জানতে সবহ।মানসী বলল-তোমার একটাকথার উত্তর দিতে আমাকে অনেক লিখতে হয়। তাহ সে মন খারাপ করে মেঘদুতকে লিখল-

হ্যা আমি সবহ জানতাম।

আমি কি জানতাম ?

আমি কি জানতাম সেদিন তুমি পিএসসিতে আসবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তুমি আমাকে না নামিয়ে অফিসে নিয়ে যাবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তুমি তোমার দু:খের কথাগুলি আমাকে রেলিয়েবল মনে করে বলছ ?

আমি কি জানতাম তুমি দীর্ঘদিন ধরে আমার অপেক্ষা করছিলে ?

আমি কি জানতাম ফোন করলেহ ঐ হমপরটেন্ট ডেক্স ছেড়ে তুমি উঠে আসবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তুমি আমাকে এত আপন করে নিবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম ঐদিন এটা ঘটবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম আমার জীবনে পরে এত কষ্ট দু:খ ঘটবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম ছেলে রেখে আমাকে এখানে সেখানে ঘুরতে হবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম ১০ ডিসেম্বর/৯৩ চান হাউজের কাছে দুর্ঘনা ঘটবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তোমাকে ছেড়ে একদিন চলে যেতে হবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম আমাকে সারাজীবন যান্ত্রিক জীবন কাটাতে হবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম আমার ব্রেন টিউমার হবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম আমি আবার ফিরে আসব ঢাকায় ?

আমি কি জানতাম  এসএফ মারা যাবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তুমি আমার জীবনে আবার আসবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম তোমার জীবনের শ্রেষ্ট সম্পদ আমাকে দান করবে ?

আমি কি জানতাম আমি একদিন তোমার ছোট বেগমে পরিনত হব?

আমি কি জানতাম একদিন তোমার বাসার সবকিছু ভেঙ্গে তছনছ করে দিব ?

না আমি কিছুহ জানতামনা কিছুহ জানতামনা,সবকিছু ছিল আমার নিয়তী !

আজ তুমি বলছ, আমিত সব জানি লেখার কি আছে ? আমার প্রশ্ন হল-

তুমি কি জান ?

তুমি জানতে না আমি লো ল্যান্ডে থাকলেও আমার ছোটবেলা থেকে একটা পার্সোনালিটি ছিল-সহজে কথা বলিনা-কেবল পরিস্থিতির স্বিকার হয়ে আমি তোমার সাথে গিয়েছিলাম।

আমার বিশ্বাস ছিল যা তুমি জানতে-

তুমি বুঝতে চেষ্টা করনি আমার মনের সত্যিকার কথাগুলি।

তুমি জানতে না তার পরের অবস্থা কি হবে ?

তুমি জানতেনা এসএফ একদিন বিদ্রোহের সৃষ্টি করবে।

তুমি জানতেনা আমার কষ্টের দিনগুলির কথা।

তুমি জানতেনা সংগ্রামী জীবনে ধীরে ধীরে আমি অসুস্থ হয়ে পড়ছিলাম।

তুমি জানতেনা আমি একদিন ব্রেন টিউমারে আক্রান্ত হব।

তুমি জানতেনা আবার একদিন আমি ফিরে আসব।

তুমি জানতেনা আমার সিএমসির জন্ম মৃতুর দিনগুলির কথা।

তুমি জানতে না এসএফ মারা যাবে।

তুমি জানতেনা আবার আমি একা হয়ে যাব।

তুমি জানতেনা আমি তোমাকে অপমান করতে পারব।

তুমি জানতে না তোমার ভালবাসায আবার আমি সিক্ত হয়ে উঠব।

তুমি জানতেনা মনের ভিতর আমি তোমাকে লালন করেছি।

তুমি জানতেনা তোমার দেয়া গোলাপ আমি প্রিজারফ করেছি। আর তাহ দেখে সিক্ত হয়েছি বার বার।

তুমি জানতেনা শেষের দিনগুলি আমি বিদ্রোহী হয়ে উঠছিলাম।

তুমি জানতে না আমার মনের অবস্থা যখন তোমার বাসায় রাত ১২টার পর আমাকে বলতে-যাও ঘুমিয়ে পড়

তুমি জানতেনা সেদিন আমি বিনিদ্র রজনী যাপন করেছি এবং আমি অসুস্থ্য জেনেও সে আমার সাথে প্রতারনা করেছিল।

তুমি জানতেনা আমার সপ্নগুলি যা আমি অন্তরে লালন করেছি কিন্ত বলতে পারিনি সেহ ভয়ে পাশে তোমাকে একেবারে হারিয়ে ফেলি।

তুমি জানতেনা আমার কষ্টগুলি।

তুমি জানতেনা তোমাকে আমি এতবড় অপমান করতে পারব।

তুমি জাননা এতবড় অপমানের পর তোমাকে বন্ধু ভাবতে আমার কষ্ট হয়।

তুমি জাননা ঐদিন আমাকে কি বলে বিদায় দিয়েছিলে-

তুমি জাননা আমি সেহ আশা নিয়েহ ফিরে এসেছিলাম।

তুমি জাননা আমি কত কষ্টে ঐদিনগুলি অতিবাহিত করেছিলাম।

তুমি জাননা সে আমাকে কি হিসাবে নিয়েছিল।

তুমি জাননা বাঙ্গালী নারী হিসাবে আমার বিশ্বাসের কথাটি।

তুমি জাননা আমি তোমাকে ভিষণ ভালবাসি তাহত তোমার কথার অবাধ্য হতে পারিনা-

তারপরও বিবেকের কাছে আমি বার বার পরাজিত হহ।

তুমি জাননা তোমাকে আমি মনের ভিতর বার বার ভাঙ্গি আর গড়ি। কিন্ত ভাঙ্গতে পারিনা বড় কষ্ট পাহ যখন দেখি তুমি অসহায় আমাদের থেকেও এতিম মনে হয় তখন আবার ফিরে আসি-

 পারিনা ভেঙ্গে ফেলতে।

তুমি জাননা তোমাকে আমি কত ভালবাসি। তাহত আমার লেখায় আমি তোমাকে বার বার খুজেঁ পাহ।

আর তখনহ কেবল মানসীকে প্রেমময়ী নারী হিসেবে রুপ দেবার চেষ্টা করি।

তুমি জাননা এ পর্যন্ত আসতে মানসীকে অনেক কষ্ট পেতে হয়েছে তাহত সে আজ এগ্রেসিভ ও্ বিদ্রোহী্।

তুমি জাননা আজও মানসী কি চায় ?

তুমি কিছুহ জাননা । (সমাপ্ত)

      

krishankannar4@gmail.com

The Month of Victory Created by Krishan konna.

The Father of the Nation

Our Father of the Nation Sheikh Mujibur Rahman is parying for my Krishan Konna Humanity Mission that I know.
 






 

Krishan konna Humanity Mission

Please let me look at your eyes, look at my face- peace, joy, succeed, happiness, advanture, dreams and still.This Month of Victory of Bangla. This Month of Monob. This Month of the Queen Krishan konna's Victory Day also. 

 


MANOB SHYENA

This is Manob Shyena who is the HERO of my eyes of this Bangla. He could challenge to me in this Bangla with his integrity of essence. My Great Honor and best of love with him. I hats off.



World Peace Gong'

This is our ' World Peace Gong'' picture. President of the World Peace Gong' Djuyoto Suntani is my brother who once opened his door for me. From that time I dreamt I will establish it only of our build brotherhood and peace of the World. Thats my dream only.

  

My dear people

This is my dearest peoples of the world. I love to them so much. I dont know when and how I reached to them. I am waiting and waiting onlly for that day. That my dream only.

"Let me look at ur eyes. Look at my face. Peace and be Still"



Manob Sheyna

Please look at Manob Sheyna who is only 32 years old and a ISP Engineer of Bd. But he is my stead forward leader who I am always looking in this Bangla. Now my feelings is so good because I got my love. So no fear , no tears, no sorrows or remorse. Now  my crying has stopped. I believe that He will be proper guide of this Bangla one day. I always would believed that human will be humanitarian only day by day to observing of our phenomenon. But my believe has dead. I of course understand thats no ages, no time it comes anytime, any ages but of course thats only God gifted that I know. Only for this once I am looking for a new generation and already invitation to all of please come on I am looking for all of you. Of course in your have hide of our leader Abraham Linclon, Mohatma Gandhi, Nelson Mendela, Bangabandhu and others who will take me the path of light and true only. who will guide of our educated disability society of Bangla. I believe that one day he will be of our love and ethics that I know. I will die, you will live and of course understand of our indispensable reality to all of my friends. Please always fighting with him. I hope of course he will can be proper guide to all of you we will  reach of our last destination Insallah. Our Mission and Vission-2021. (cont.)

The poem '' BIDDROHI'' by Kazi Nazrul Islam

The Modern Story of Bangladesh Created by Krishan konna



Rahila Khanum
Ministry of Agriculture

 Today my feelings was not good because today my pc fully stop, no communicated of my fbf. In 2004 after my brain tumor my Dr. Ari.  Chacko suggested that at least half an hour regular walking. But always I performed. last year I first felt my lelf leg pains. At that day Dr. examine and advice no walk long. So stop walking. But now always to sitting to my pc. So for some days I have been felf pains of my backside. So seem to me that I will die but no completed of my KHM. So I became aggressive. Then I wrote something what I am thinking then. Then my friend Christopher wrote to me that-

Christopher Mark Wingate Krishan, you have life when others do not. Be happy with family and forget government hurt. That does mean forget their wrongs just forget their effect on your life.When you go to sleep be at peace. And when you wake be happy you have woken. Enjoy the sun rise, enjoy nature. People too often bring hurt so being aware of that will make you turn your focus from them to nature. Enjoy living and be happy.

Then I wrote to him-
 Krishan Konna You dont know my friend for some days I could not sitting and trying to bed but could not my backbone so pains. I recall once my collegague said to me that you lost your brain and lost you back side. Really two years ago lost my left leg. now lost my back side. I am going to bed. yet this is my last day. You never see to me web page. But I will back if I come back my life that lost once. Please pray for me my dear.Bye.

Then I went first of our secretary of Social welfare. But  no met.  I submited my document about my parmanent house where I will to do my all KHM activitie parmanently.

After that Iwent of our Press club at Dhaka. I said to them that I am the Queen krishan konna of Bangladesh want ot telling something in front of Bangladesh. Once insulted me the peoples of out side. Now fbf also bad comments thats not true. I want to proved that I am the Queen Krishan konna of Bangladesh. Now I am coming out of my office only open my face cover and head cover. Please let me say . Then they took of my documents that I singed to the chief news- (prodhan bartabahok).

Then I went of our NGO burreau office of my KHM purpose. Yesterday I went to our additional director of Agargaon Social welfare Extension. Then she told me to meet the director of NGO burreau. So today I went there and known about the registration. Sir helped me and understand me what I perform that. Then I come back of my house.
 Now first open my facebook and written my msg.
Krishan Konna

Dear Chris you are right to say. Please look at now I am wake up from my sleep and to observed the world is so nice and beautiful. You know once from my family, from my society and from my administration stressed me all side, but now I am s...till standing up only Almighty God. You know I am so strong to the inside of my mind and soul but only of my integrity of esssence. Please believe me for somedays my backside so pains when I am sittiing the chair. then so pains, no work my pc. So my feelings was so bad. on the other side my office pc has lost, on open, today has lost forever. So I could not communicate or work then I my feelings is so bad. then I become mad. You know now I am a patient of brain tumor. So no tension thats suggested my Dr. Ari.Chacko. He alwaws with me only five years. A lot of advice to me But could not stop me this tension. Please believe me life has created this condition. Dr. Ari. Chako's advice that daily half an hour walking but last year lost my lefl leg. so no walk so more. But now was good. somedays ago so feelings back pains. I heard that our PM Shiekh Hasina said that all of you coperation of our disability peosples and always help to them. But now I am disability listed but nothing to do for me, even destroy my life day by day. A pc ! can you say how much money ? But that will be can perform a lot of human wellbing. Always I want to living peacefully but they again and again hurt me . At last stage of my life. I have leave and start practical way.

Krishan Konna First I went to our Secretary of Social welfare. For somedays I have been trying and once went there but our Minister of Social welfare is now sick. So no meet. Today I went and given my all document to PS sir and loud voice there. I already said that I want to my justice why do you damaged my life. Now arrage my big house only for KHM at Dhanmondh Residensial area.

Krishan Konna

After that I went of our Press Club at Dhaka. In there I said to them that I am the Queen Krishan konna of Bangladesh something to tell of my Bangladesh. There is nothing without true in the world. I was dumb. Once I came in here from my vi...llage, in here they are damaged my life, now I go back of my village to the beside of my father grave and want to sleep forever. Only before gone my desire that to talk something in here. I dont go of my house until you no call to all of our reporters. I alredy submissin of my website and said to them please search and read and arrage- To chief newsbroad casting may be prothan bartabahok.

Krishan Konna

After that I went of our NGO's burreau only for the registration purpose of KHM. Yester day I went to our social welfare extension. But my madam additional director said to me that you will go to NGO office where to performed that. But now ...

 

After that I have written about Flora. Now why I can not to pleased with her. As like as my husband expired. ? Why I come back of my nice day that I lost before ? Now I want to live only with my KHM that make me happy only.

 

 

Krishan Konna

After long days I recall to you Flora. Only you know without anybody of your Mami. Only you was my best friend who always make me happy. After expired your Mama, always you kept of us full of happy schwan and Rafsan. But now you has gone fr...om us only my acitvities. I recall last year you said to me that Mamy everything forget you what happened before. We will of our injustice of that judgement day in front of Allah. Who disputed of us in this world, of course they will be punishment by Allah. She stoped but I dont stop till now. Because she has a big car, big house she is doing what she feeling is good. But I am ? I will forget by what thing s ? In 2006 woman day we (Flora and me) became the member of Jago Nari Foundation, then amb. Monzurul Alam said to the President of that Foundation,'' why Flora will be the member of Nari Jagoron Foundaiton ? Flora is disputed of our Society.''. I recall after my husband death Flora was my nephew that means friend company to me . But now I could not any time for her. She always to angree for my activities. But I could not. I want to live only my noble activities. I already to said her when I completed my work then I come back to you. I recall once my fb friend propasal to me that Flora and me joined the Jatio party. By the by I told to Flora. She was smiling. I know that she always like and love BNP that I know. But I dont like any party. I like to all of them who are good person of the World and who understand of our indispensable reality.

I have already told that my roots are so strong. Someone likes BNP, someone Jation Party, some one Awameleague. I am a children freedom fighter also. I am humanist. I like to all of them who are so good person and understand of our indispensable reality and love and like the Queen Krishan konna of Bangladesh.

 

My best regards our ex. Prime Minister Begum Khaleda Zia now I am telling to you that really I like and love you. But now I am humanist. So first I priority of our poor, needy, disable and helpless society. Now I see to benifit of our fifteen core peoples of Bangladesh. I know that now you are humanist also. Because you have seen a lot of sequence of Bangladesh. Of course I hope you are not educated disability. you understand of our indispensable reality. I mean you give that of our helpless and needy peoples. So in here you are a Great that I know. Always remember Krishan konna is a disability listed. She is widow. she has no any maid servant, no any suitable house. Only Allah protected her. But her integrity of essence is so hight. She understand of our indispensable reality. Now we are in a nation, in a Mission only. Please let us build brotherhood and peace of the world. The world of course remember to you. Please understand of our indispensable reality.

 

My best regards our ex. Prime Minister Begum Khaleda Zia now I am telling to you that really I like and love you. But now I am humanist. So first I priority of our poor, needy, disable and helpless society. Now I see to benifit of our fifteen core peoples of Bangladesh. I know that now you are humanist also. Because you have seen a lot of sequence of Bangladesh. Of course I hope you are not educated disability. you understand of our indispensable reality. I mean you give that of our helpless and needy peoples. So in here you are a Great that I know. Always remember Krishan konna is a disability listed. She is widow. she has no any maid servant, no any suitable house. Only Allah protected her. But her integrity of essence is so hight. She understand of our indispensable reality. Now we are in a nation, in a Mission only. Please let us build brotherhood and peace of the world. The world of course remember to you. Please understand of our indispensable reality.

 

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Please look at this picture in liberation war 1971. This is our old history but established of our Bangladesh. Only for a little peace we was fighting to against the pakistan government. Once our Bangabandhu was born and brought up of our Gopalgong at the middle class family. But he was the Aposhhin leader at that day. At that day we liked and loved him only his boldness and integrity only. He was fighting always of our poor, needy, farmer, labour and helpless society. But after 1975 when killed Bangabandhu, then to killing whole humanity that I know. I know that one day he raised loud voice behalf the 4th class staff of Dhaka university. Then they called him terrorist. But after a long time he honored and proved at that day he was not terrorist, He was right. But now only from my life first I raised my loud voice behalf of our 4th, 3rd, 2nd class staff of our Bangladesh Secretariat. But now to called me I am Mad or terrorist. But I believe when you read of my writing, of course you tell one day that I am not mad or terrorist. I am the peace of the symbol of Bangladesh.

 

Please look at this picture. We are human also. We have same appetide, same dress and same sleeping tools. They are a parto of our life. they are of our famly member only.

 

Please look at of our children. Please understand of our indispensalbe reality. Please be humanitaria.

 

This is my dreamer Krishan konna Humanity Mission. Thats only of our poor, needy, disable and helpless peoples of Bangladesh. Now I mean every one of Bangladesh in a Mission and in a Nation.

 

The Queen Krishan konna of Bangladesh. Rahila Khanum, personal officer, the Goverenment of the Peoples, Republic of Bangladesh.

 

 

This is our ex. President H.M Ershad. I like him so much. Because seem to me he was a humanitarian also. Shakespare said that the peoples come, perform their part and go. But everyone dont possess of natural love feelings. Allah is Great ! HE selected who will be presiden or not. Thats all.

 

Our Prime Minister Sheikh Hasina. Once I was born and brought up a family of the ideal of Bangabandhu. So in 1982 may be when she came of Jenidah Uzir Ali's field. Then I reading of entermidiate of K.C college of Jenidha. It was raining, I was running and reached the side of the stage and was hearing her spech by crying. When she came of our Narail Stadium's field. At that time I was in there. Kabir Jahangir of Sweden gave her a photo Album that I know. After a long years to crossed a long path now I am disability listed. I am the Queen Krishan konna of Bangladesh.

 

This is our Aysha Fufu Amma who is only one living our before generation. She is the daughter of famaous business man Shafiuddin Mina. She is a mother of Adjudent General Mojahed uddin Millon. Please look at she is sitting a simple cain chair and her room is so much poverty, no any gorgius, Whereas she is a mother of Adjudent General , Dhaka Cantonment. I know that in Dhaka Cantonmet has a lot of peoples who are humanitarian that I know.

 

This is famous business man Shafiuddin Mina's Mosque that means '' Shafi Mosque'' of Chapta village where once born and brought up of or honorable Advisor Prof. Modasser Ali.

 

This our Famous Mina House. where once I went to that house being their best daughter of law. But my feelings is so bad till now I could not nothing to do.

 

This picture is same--

 

Please look at this picture. Yesterday when to running strike, then capture to that picture, but I collected by news paper only.

I am telling to Mosarrat Khan of Pakistan only this write up on your comments.

Rahila khanum
Ministry of Agriculture

Thank Mosarrat Khan for your comments. But always remember today what I known or as my believe but no change ever. Only change after my death. You are MA of Islamic but I am a science graduate. Primary scholarship and may be all class 1st girl that means I was class captain always. I know reading Holy Quran. But did not understand bangla meaning. I am a personal officer of government of the peoples Republic of Bangladesh. But your Pakistan govt. always stress of needy, poor and helpless peoples, they always mean themself as like as God. Just thats rules till now of our govt. rules where always distress of our 3rd class, 4th class and others only. The period of Pakistan we are never dream to do job in here. At that day my father was a big farmer who is quitely freedom. He always maintain all of us (ten children) only depend his caltivation. But once I came this Heaven that means Bangladesh secretariat from my village. But in here I first disputed high educated society. Only for this I dont communicate all of my relatives. I have been struggling day by day. First life I was a high school teacher (popular teacher) but unfortunately became farm labour of defferment of Agriculture. From there now I am Bangladesh secretariat. But always I have  seen a lot of God has created here. But I mean Almighty Allah is only God to us. Only for this I have seen in here a lot of our staff follow to them and trying to do income behind door. I also seen a lot of peoples regular performed their prayer but behind door they are working inhumanity activities. For this in here created a corrupt peoples. Always to killing inhumanity for this that I dont loterate. Our establishment rules just created that Pakistan government. In here all of us dumb. If we stress, but no express. If express, so our job is dismis. But in here when I am so distressed then I dont bangging my head to against my wall stand from it and looking the option to living high head. After leberation that means after 40 years I cached my pen to agaist the inhumanity to break up. As like as our rebel poet Qazi Nazrul. I continue fighting my family, my society and my administration, as like as a disability listed Rahila Khanum. I known from my life being human being. Now I converted of humanist. Of course I recognised that Agha Tariq H Khan is a humanist because he first indicate me humanist to read  from my story. I believe always good person uderstand of good person only. Just now I can understant to read or look at anyone how he is ! Anyway first to me honor from Agha Tariq Khan. Yes I have written some in my thoughts english and  bangale on IHM thats published on my facebook. I taught how create the Mission as like as him. I created my KHM only follow to him. But not any matter that i know. Always we follow to all of  humanist life and their activities or others. We are best human by Allah, So everyone will be creative but nothig. Sheikh Hafsa Sheikh's writing lost life that I have published my blog. So nice. I mean thats to need only for human welbeing. Allah said that to express if you know a simple one Ayat of Quran.'' Everyone should be responsible. But what I am doing ? I never the meaning of Quran. But you know so much. I have taught some Ayat of Quran. Such as-Midad-32, Huzural-13, Imran-54, 64, 110, 168 and others. Always these express sometimes only for wake up who forgot Almigty Allah,Quran and Mohammad (PBUH). But now I known from that. such as Shura Midad Ayat-13-Allah say-' Oh human I created you only a pair of woman and man, then divided of others catagories. such as-color, religion, language, country , environment and others status only for introduce to each of others. He is so honorble near me who is so much Mottakin.Whereas no qureel to each of others. Shura Imran Ayat 110 Allah say " you are best human, I created to you only for human welbeing. You encourage to good works and discourage to untrue.'' Imran-64 Allah say-' Come on that way which same to you and me.Always remember Islam is the peace of religion. The Holy Quran is the best solution books of human and our Prophet Mohammad (PBUH) is the best fandamentalist of Islam. Allah already said His Holy Quran that no express ever, already I expressed of my Quran. So remember Islam is comfort, not efforts. But now a important things that understand only Mr. Agha Tariq Khan and brother Djuyoto Suntani. Because to need a lot of year only for observe. You dont understand because you dont reach that position. When human converted humanist then He loves and likes to all without discrimination. I known that Allah, God, Isshore, Vogoban is only one who controls this vast kingdom. Allah is not only Muslim, HE is all human beings. In this world every Holy book tells the true, fair and humanity.  Who understand our indispensable reality He is the humanist only. Who loved humanity and love humanity they are all of humanist but this number is rare in all the world. But we remember first our Mohammad (PBUH) was the best humanist. Allah said that when true is standing up over the false, then of course abolist the false. JESUS said that you are looking the true, of course true free from you. '' So now I am out of country and entered the Earth Planet only for looking at the true. I am humanist I want to know to about the all religion what they saying. Allah already say by HIS shura Imran-54 that same so no problems. So we are all brothers and sister only but only defferent environment. Please to teach differentiate good and bad only. if he Hindus or Muslims or christian. In this world have two type human bad and good. Always remember we are human and all come from a pair of woman and man. Now we are living as like as a big family in the Earth Planet. we are all brothers and sisters only.

You said Casmir, Babri mosque and our liberation. I already said that in this word two catagories peoples always was and have now. They dont understand of  our indispensable reality. Only for this now fighting and crying in the world.  Please look at President Barack Obama said that Islam is the Great religion.Even he said to going Indonesia that we are not fighting (Crused)  to agaist the Mulsim. Even he always to tells favour of Islam. I mean he is understand of our reality. He is the great humanist who never differentiate of any religion.

On the other hand I have seen of my country for being 20 years of our health sector. Everyone is commercial. Doctors serve is the best virtue. But most of them dont apply. I have seen my operation period at Cmch, Vellore of Inida, in there every doctor is great humanitarian. Because they seem to serve is their best religion. they always follow to their JESUS. I have seen that their touch in hand everybody come back him lost life. Every doctors of Cmch is humanitarian. Even from my childhood I had seen that my  grand father Shluresh Chondro Mukherji who was my grand fathers firiends. You know that our Mohammad (PBUH) said that ' Never capture of orphan property'' But always i have seen that Muslim did not obey this rules. Once occurred my father period and now my two sons period. no complain only upon for that Judgement day. My fathers period save him Brahamn (Hindu) S.k Mukherji and in 2004 save Dr.Ari.Chacko, Cmch of INdia. But our Muslim they disputed me, no accountalbe to me or nothing to do for me. Now I can differentiate good and bad. So no compare of religion only to see real person. I love that person who is good and integirty and i hate that person who dishonest and no sincere. I love to all of ur poor, needy and helpless peoples of the world.I like all of good person of the world.

On the other hand you will be glad that my two sons is so sensible they of course understand of our indispensable reality more than me. You look at backward of the world. If any person really understand of our indispensable reality, then they of course killed. But only will stay of their particles. when I will not stay in this world. At that day Schwan and Rafsan will be my particles only who always will tell the word of humanty of course.

At last I say to you- I heard that everything is coping but a word is never copying. After that its good if you know any word. thats all. I recall once my fbf told me that why you published your articles, if anybody copping ?  But I dont care, a lot of articles, blogs everythins is gave for human beings. If anyone copying its, I will be grateful to him. Al least to used anyone. that I know. I dont believe it that damage any Mission ferformance if any sentence or word, eighter to gaining only seem to them that you donar or creditor and who take it they debitor or loaner. So dont matter that I know. Always remember the cost of failure is experience. Because when you insulted then only could taugth my english writing.  I never degrade of our new generation only invitation please come the path of true,fair and humanity. A word you remember ' You can not change human nature'' ' Never say never' ..  We are one word-We shall over come one day. Please dont say no'  (cont.)

MY HAPPY HOME.



Rahila Khanum
Ministry of Agriculture



After my wake up I see everything is completed but how ? I said to Schwan why you to taken such risk ? If break up my sleep, only for this he could not that, Now seems to me thats my son, he is so great as like as Bayejid B. who once sitting beside her mother with a glass of water of our history.

This is my son Schwan Ahmed. Once he had a lot of drems but we could not fulfilled. From his childhood when I stayed at Jattrabari, when he got any oportunity he had gone the filed of Cricket. He like so much the play of Cricket. He always wanted to be a cricketor. But I could not for him. He completed his study that means SSC and HSC of Dhanmondh Boys school and Bangladesh Rifel Public school and college.

When I was in Cmch, Vellore of India. Then he was attending his HSC exam. and at that time his father had expired to that moment when runing the conversation he and his father. At that time to more destroyed his life hope. Then all of his class mate had gone for their higher studies. But he could not go to any distance  place to  leave us only. Even did not go Jogonnath college also. At last he admitted Dhaka college with Management. His serial was may be 400 something. Then my Sir was Faruque Hosain was deputy controler of national university, just at that time transfered to my desk may be. Schwan so much requested to me that to read only study Accounting. But I could not for his at that day. After that a lot of students automatic transfered from management to Accounting. Thats reality. Rafsan was so small at that time, so he  regular performed to take and bring from his school only.He sometimes missed his class and come back only Rafsan. Thats was his lifestyle.

Schwan Ahmed
my elder son.

I have seen a lot of students admitted North South universtiy, East west university and others. But I could not only financial problems. At that day everyone betrayed to us. No body did not come beside me at that miserable period. Even tried to damage our life at that time. Althought a lot of time has passed of this national university. Only for not my son, a lot of children also. thats our reality.

Althought I could not properly educated to him. But I am always proud that my son is a real educated person. As like as me he dont like politics. He believe that always politicians are not real. But he understand our indispensable reality more than me. He loved me so much. I love him also.

Althought after my operationa and in my struggle life 2004-till now, I could not to cook of normal food items for two my sons that always to doing comon mother. My life style was uncommon. I cooked always balanced food for them only. Every morning I cooked a four letter cooker full of balanced food-such as-rich, dal, various kind of vegetables. Thats had  took of whole day of my two sons. No maid servent of us. We have done everything ourselves. I was service holder, cooker, teacher of my younger son, maid servant, always sitting in the bazar and cut of fish. How to do passing my that miseable days I dont know, never not trying think. A lot of challenge was in my life. Always was a lot of stress but I could not surrender with unfair. When anyone come in front of me then I tried my best.

Rafsan Ahmed my younger son
and my daughter
(nephew) Nigar Sultana Tumpa.

Now I mean I am a succeed of mother. Because I am a mother of Schwan and Rafsan. Today I am in here only to do a lot of challege every moment that I faced to continue.

I dont know my expired date of death. After that I always hope Schwan will getting a good job and will maintain to Rafsan. Then I will no distress. Only to waiting that days only. (cont.)

ALMIGHTY ALLAH, the HOLY QURAN, Prayer and our covered.

I am Krishan konna always I believe that Allah is unique in his artributes and sustaining. While I am nothing but a small particle in a vast kingdom that Allah controls. Allah is not only God of Muslim, He is all human beings. The Holy Quran is the best guider of Islam. In there Allah indicated the everything that come in front of us. Fundamentalist is that person who knows everything of the Holy Quran. Prophet Mohammad (PBUH) was the great humanitarian of the world and most fundamentalist. Our Quran always tells of true, fair and humanity most. I born and brought up of a respectable Muslim family. So always I have read the Holy Quran regular but I did not meaning of the Quran. Just now I studied something about our Holy Quran. In there I known something that understand me fullly life and about the world.

Now I can differentiate good and bad. Now I am always fighting only for needy, poor, disable and helpless peoples of the world. After all I am fighting to against the inhumanity. I want to serve humankind. I know that everyone dont possess of that. Only possessing natural love feelings to serve human kind. I have read some Ayat of the Quran and to known that :

''Oh human I created to all of you only a pair of man and woman and then divided to others catagories -such as religion, color, language, environment, nation, country and others status, only introduced to each of others.'' (Shura Huzurat, Ayat 13). 

So now I understand our indispensable reality. I understand that now we are living as like as a big family in the Earth Planet. In here we are all brothers and sisters only. No compare anyone. We are all equall and after death will go same place. We are not in here parmanently.

''You are the best human only for human being you appeared the world. Always to encourage to do good works and discourage the unfair.'' (Shura Imran, Ayat-110).

But what we are doing now ? Always playing, not performing. To concentrate on humanity as believe it is the life purpose of every new born baby ' Integrity of essence' when you will start to  the feel pains of others, then your pain is finised. Love to humanity and carry out humanitarian work in a practical way then you will be surprised to feel and come to know, the Insallah Almighty Allah will be started to reach to you. Actually this world has become like this where peoples always feel reluctant and avoid such person who are always crying on their personal story. Thats our reality.

'If any Muslim to killing  any innocent  people, then he to killing the whole nation. If any human to save any peoplelife then he  save to  the whole nation'' (Shura Mydad, Ayat-32).

But how much obey this rules of Allah ? Continue we are to killing of the nation. I mean if we obey our religion of Islam, every moment a lot of peoples of course must be death of hangging. I dont know how much loved of Almighty Allah and His Quran. I recall once our sir's said to us, if we really obey the rules of establishment then 70% peoples standing up where they standing up. If you say thats rules so you tell wrong.'' We see thats our punishment in here, after that not abide by that. Whereas the rules of Almighty Allah has no seen only keeping at that Judgement day only,  so no applicable in here. Thats our reality. After that ''  kothaye Shorgo, kothaye Norok, ke bole ta bohu dur, Manusher majee Shorgo Norok, Manushe--shura shur (Where Heaven, where Hell, thats not so long distance, it is only staying in the Peoples of the World). I am not basically  humanist, only trying to serving humanity. From my life, I have seen a lot of  cruel person who distressed the human and destroyed their life only.  Always two power that I talking always. Just the true owner is Almighty Allah. We will be questioned at the day of judgement which power we used and for what purpose. Of course Allah will be answer to us for our independent thoughts.

I have seen in here a lot of peoples used the the religion of Islam only. Our Islam does not believe this short of terrisom of the name of Islam. Islam is the peace of religion. Islam always teach us true, fair and humanity .But this short of terrorism always destroy our orginal image of the Islam.  

'' Come on thats world which same of you and me.''    (Shura Imran-Ayat-64).

From this shura I have known that Allah, God, Isshore, Bhogoban are same person thats means Almighty Allah is only one who controls this vast kingdom. In here we are all brothers and sisters only. Every Holy books and all the religion are talk to same word. that means ture, fair and humanity most. So now no questionable,  no disputable to that.

' They conspired and Allah adopted technique also. Allah is the best of technician. '' Shura Imran, Ayat-54.).

Actually Allah is Great ! He always staying to all of good person and helping them.

ALLAH said when the true is standing up over the false, then false is abolished. JESUS said that you are looking for the true, of course true realease you free from that. ''

So now I am standing up only true thats  made me strong only. I dont fear anyone without my Almighty ALLAH. I have seen every night He had come in my dream and directed what I will to do now. Now I am alone and alone. Only my Allah always loves me as like as my mother. Only for this I am going forwarding thats my strength only.

In here always I have seen a lot of good person lady and gentleman planning officers before. I recall research officer Monzur Morshed who was my first instructor of my pc. He is now abroad. Madam Shathi Dhor, Krishna Gayen, Monoara apa, Afroza Moazzem, Vokti majumder and others who was so nice and good person that I know. But now a days a lot of lady officer who wearing salowar Kamiz that means Pakistani national dress only. Thats to being  hurt of me. From my student life I dislike it. But no problem they wearing in their house thats their right. But our honorable Bangladesh Secretariat place they are wearing Pakistani national dress and dishonor our national dress thats so shameful ! On the other hand they perform their prayer and say with pridely- are you prayer ? are you prayer ? But why ? I mean that no right to tell me. Because I am matured. So understand and can differentiate good and bad only. I mean human being human is the best religion of the world. 'Manob shebae boro Dhormo ae prithibitey. I have seen a lot of prayer and to performed illegal activities or playing behind door. I hate them always.

Whole life I was reserved thats knows everyone of my school and college and others. But till now no open my face cover, no open my head cover, no open my black glass, only in here that means website I am naket now. Always I mean our Borka is not only our cover. Mind and soul are cover of everyone, it does not matter what is covered and hot not but only our mind that I know.

I want to all of them always wearing our national dress Sari and be ploite and humanitarian always. They love to us as like as brothers and sisters (shura Hurura, Ayat-13 accordingly). No compare of black and white. Not behave as like as Pakistan Army. who once absorbed me always. Just our establishment rules made by that CSP officer only. So now I mean should be  something change of course. (cont.)                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  3

Thought of Krishan konnna only for to all of my friends of the World.

Everyday at night I woke up and dreamt something thats only wrote in my thoughts before.  From my childhood always I have distressd again and again forced disempowerment in my mind. In 2008 when I was so distressed when ex. Waliur Rahman sir was silent no answer my question, then always I was writing to our Prime Minister Sheikh Hasina a lot of letters , everyday in my thoughts, sometimes I have written that I dont live in this country, please send me out of country with my two orphan sons. At that night I had my dreamt to my father, my elder brother and my husband who had gone away  forever. All of them came and told me that ''you can not leave this country.  You responsible in this country, you responsible who help for your new life, you responsible Anjuman Mofidul , you responsible Ductch Bangla Bank, you responsible of your two sons. You can not hide thisway as like as selfish. Just that day in my thought thats right. Why I hide myself ? This country is my sacred land. Every bit of the soil has mixed of our swept. My roots spread to everywhere in all the country thats so strong. If I cut to them of course bleeding that I could not tolerated. So from that I cached my pen only for save me thats only for my two orphan sons. 

But now I see always a lot of face of my children, a lot of faces as like as me innocent  in here who are helpless always. Always they are so distressed and continue to do disempowerment of the power upon them. When I see anywhere to do disempowerment of the power, then I become excited and write on my webpage and then relaxed. Otherwise I so distressed in my mind thats harmful for my health only. (cont.)

Please dont disempowerment of the Power and be humanitarian.

Today  when my returning home from my office then occurred a misearble incident. As usual our govt. staff bus are standing up oposite the Bangladesh Secretariat. Just in front of the Osmani Sriti Milonayeton. In there regular sitting a lot of fruits seller only life purpose. As usual we was sitting of our seat. By this time a govt. employer a lot of  hits a apple seller. At that time someone out from the bus and joined his and a lot of hits to apple seller boy. My feelings was so bad.  I raised loud voice that you are disempowerment of the power. Why all of you beat him ? Then they realized that they was wrong.

But now in my thought always I am fighting this needy, poor, disable and helpless peoples. Everywhere I have seen a lot of this behaviour but I dislike it. When I drive Rickshaw then no bargain whereas I give them excess money always. But a lot of peoples always lost the needy peoples. I recall when I had gone others place with my father of my childhood. I had seen my father cross the river by Fery, not use boat. Because the boat expended so much money that Fery by Narail Fery Ghat. But in front of our village river always the boat of own and to rent of others. Or whole years money payment at a time. Thats our rules. Most of the needy peoples always maintain their lives only to eating our foods. My parents did not disempowerment of the power to the needy, poor, helpless peoples. I recall my husband sometimes said and compare the peoples that they are our maid servants generation, they never seated in front of us, always seated they under the floor. Thats means their activities as like as empirer. He sometimes said to me that you are a farmer's daughter what you know ? Then I was weeping. But now nothing in mind whereas I am proud being farmer's daughter that means Krishan konna. I love poor, needy, helpless and disable peoples.

I want that everyone understand our indispensable reality. We come and go as usual. Now we are living as like as a big family. In here all of us family members. They are human, they have rights as like as me living. In here. Allah created just thisway-rich and poor.Thats our reality. Allah said that ''you are the best human, I created to you only human beings.'' So always we understand our indispensable reality, one day we shall have to leave in this world to the darkness grave only empty hand. Allah gave me strong two hand only for human being and to serve human kind. To serve human kind no need to money. only always tendency and in good thought thats enought. Some loss or benifit not matter. As like as we thought in our  family, just as like as in my thought always of the world. thats only bring the peace and happiness only. Althought always in my thought of our colleague, After that we are better than that poor, needy peoples. So let us we will be humanitarian and to serve human kind and understand our indispensable reality. Our two strong hand as like as always used only to serve human kind only. (cont.)