Everyday at night I woke up and dreamt something thats only wrote in my thoughts before. From my childhood always I have distressd again and again forced disempowerment in my mind. In 2008 when I was so distressed when ex. Waliur Rahman sir was silent no answer my question, then always I was writing to our Prime Minister Sheikh Hasina a lot of letters , everyday in my thoughts, sometimes I have written that I dont live in this country, please send me out of country with my two orphan sons. At that night I had my dreamt to my father, my elder brother and my husband who had gone away forever. All of them came and told me that ''you can not leave this country. You responsible in this country, you responsible who help for your new life, you responsible Anjuman Mofidul , you responsible Ductch Bangla Bank, you responsible of your two sons. You can not hide thisway as like as selfish. Just that day in my thought thats right. Why I hide myself ? This country is my sacred land. Every bit of the soil has mixed of our swept. My roots spread to everywhere in all the country thats so strong. If I cut to them of course bleeding that I could not tolerated. So from that I cached my pen only for save me thats only for my two orphan sons.
But now I see always a lot of face of my children, a lot of faces as like as me innocent in here who are helpless always. Always they are so distressed and continue to do disempowerment of the power upon them. When I see anywhere to do disempowerment of the power, then I become excited and write on my webpage and then relaxed. Otherwise I so distressed in my mind thats harmful for my health only. (cont.)
Why I hide myself ? This country is my sacred land. Every bit of the soil has mixed of our swept. My roots spread to everywhere in all the country thats so strong. If I cut to them of course bleeding that I could not tolerated. So from that I cached my pen only for save me thats only for my two orphan sons.
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